Up, down, up, down

It's another week where I don't feel motivated to write my McFatty Monday post. It wasn't a bad week either. I lost, but I'm still not back to where I had been and the scale is being stubborn. It just doesn't seem to want to drop lower than a certain number even when I think it should.

Total weight loss to date? 10 pounds.

I think was has me irked is that I was supposed to reach my first goal by today. I was supposed to be taking progress photos and cringing as I post them. But I'm not because I'm not quite there yet and that's discouraging. Not because I'm not happy with losing 10 lbs, but because I think I should have lost more and I want that first reward for Kaelyn, gosh darn it.

This week I stayed within my points. I splurged Friday night, but I hadn't used many points earlier in the day so I had a bunch left and then I just zeroed out the rest of my flex points. I didn't drink any soda. I drank a good amount of water, though I can always drink more of it. I took the stairs, except in the mornings.

This week I want to work on drinking more water and carrying water with me everywhere so I keep on drinking and don't get to the point that I feel dehydrated. I also want to take the stairs in the morning. I think this would help set the tone for the rest of my day. I also want to work in some crunches, help my deflated baby tummy tighten up.

I think I need structure to help me when it comes to portions. Frozen lunches are helping. I think I might go through with the Safeway home delivery offer and get a bunch of meals like that. (They've been trying to lure me with free delivery and $10 off anyway.)

If getting my sweet little girl new toys isn't enough motivation, I've also been looking at new jeans to buy. I have a goal jeans size in mind and I want, want, WANT to get there. I know it's just a number, but oh to slip into that size would feel so good. As always, I want to get where I feel good about myself. I want to not be hypercritical of photos of myself. I don't want to silently be thinking about how I have a double chin or my arms look really wide. I want to be happy with how I look so it's not at the forefront of my mind. I want to not have to think about it.

I actually bought a few new shirts last Friday. I'm so sick of my standard work wardrobe, but I don't want to buy too much stuff if I'm about to drop 60 lbs. No luck finding pants, but the shirts I got should last me and I can always ask Betty if she can alter them when I do lose weight. Not that I bought anything particularly expensive. I just kept thinking how nice (and even fun) it will be to shop when I lose more weight.

Note: My edit window has been open all day. I guess "that's all I have to say about that." Until next Monday, when I'll hopefully have good news to report!